Sunday, July 26, 2009

It’s Sunday...

And I neglected to go to church. I feared my fatigue would fail me--a fatigue I've really never known. I've only left my apartment twice since Wednesday.

Wed. morning I was in complete denial that I was sick. I tried to be superwoman by going to work, not addressing my symptoms. My hot/cold chills had me scurrying home--to the Dr. first--by noon with my tail in between my legs.

I've never been one to acknowledge that I'm tired and forgo a responsibility of something I need to do. My poor husband... I've responded to his expression of tiredness before by saying, "It's okay. Push through it. You can do it." So sorry, dear. I'm evolving.

This has been a healthy change of pace for sure. I've had a lot--a little too much--time to think, pray, lay, and relax.

The only excuse I have for my busyness and overexhausting myself is--HELLO--my husband is back East and I'm here in Utah. I hate it so much--loathe, despise, can't stand. It's truly awful. So I keep myself busy and try to be productive and immerse myself in work, running, and creative projects with aspirations that time will fly. When I'm idle, I feel the burn. But when I'm busy, it somehow just works.

My responses to all the outsider's (lack of a better term) comments I've funneled are in no way a front. Rather, a more optimistic attitude...

Outside #1: (With a look of disgust) I could never be a part from my husband for that long.
Me: Well, although logistically it doesn't make sense to you, we feel peace about it.

Outsider #2: Why wouldn't you just move there?
Me: Well I really love my job and couldn't justify quiting just to move away for the summer when we have to return here for Andrew's school. Plus, I get to see him most weekends. It works.

I didn't even mean to go in this direction. Getting back to the part about laying and thinking--

I was reminded of Elder Oaks talk Good, Better, Best. So I had to read. The following highlights stuck out to me.

“Most of us have more things expected of us than we can possible do… just because something is good is not a sufficient reason for doing it. The number of good things we can do far exceeds the time available to accomplish them. Some things are better than good, and these are the things that should command priority attention in our lives."

And then Elder Oaks goes on to reiterate the beautiful story of Mary & Martha, which always hits home when I hear it.

Needless to say, I can’t (even though I must) wait for Drew to come home to our cutsie abode. I’m off my rocker and need him back. I plan on doing some evaluating and realigning in my life. When the kids come, I've got to have my little ducks (priorities) in a row and not out of whack.

Please excuse the long wind. I've got to get back to my Sunday R&R.


Saturday, July 25, 2009

Sun + H2O=

(I really hate to be the next person to blog about baithing suits...)





I've been wanting a real nude or gold suit for a while. I found this with Mod Retro Indie clothing. But of course, sold out!


Not sure how this one would fit. It was a random vintage suit from Urban Outfitters--not mass produced though.
Did you know Country Living featured some suits? New to me... Cute suit though. I'm all about coverage around the bottom.
I've never really liked 2 pieces--it's more about the body then the suit it seems. As hard as tall 1 pieces are to find, I've managed just fine, and never thought about doing differently. Until I saw this one... I really like it!


Great way to display jewelry...



My mom has a love for old trading beads and glass beads. It's so personalized and expressive and out of the norm.

I think it is so neat the way she has everything displayed on dainty little hooks.


* This might seem like a stretch, but I would love to have a wall one day with beautiful knobs sticking out all over. They would have to be spaced and on the right kind of wall but I think that would so neat.


Anthropolgie has the neatest collection of knobs. Maybe I should start collecting....


Friday, July 24, 2009

Mono...

No visiting my husband this weekend

No family reunion

No picnic

No Kenny Chesney

No soccer game

No work

High fever

Fatigue

Tears

But I might just be love sick.




Monday, July 20, 2009

Collectibles...

My family is extremely sentimental and likes to collect things. When I was home, I decided to capture a few...


My mom has stored away our various letterman rings. Is that what you call them? I appreciated seeing them clumped together. My mom's high school ring as well as her BYU ring is in there as well. Then we've got my brother's Eagle Scout ring and our state championship rings. There are a couple BYU conference champ rings too. I brought one back to wear these next couple of months. It's kinda fun to be wearing a class ring again. Pardon the terrible photography. I'm working on it--

My mom has some beautiful Lladro's. My sister collects these that remind her of the special crossroads of her life.

These are the old Barclay soldiers made in the early 1900's. There are some extremely rare ones now. One at a time, my mom and brother have hunted these down. Not a Christmas goes by where he doesn't get one.

I collected patches when I went to various countries. I had a stash full and decided to put them on a skirt. You won't find me wearing these here, but you mind in Europe--of you're lucky.

My brother collected license plates when he was in high school. Every time we passed through another state or a relative did, we would hunt one down. He has some really old ones. It's a neat collection displayed in the garage. Don't mind the stragglers hanging on for dear life.







Sunday, July 19, 2009

The Baker Hotel...

I was working in Dallas and some accompanying areas this week which brought me through small town Mineral Wells--just a couple of lights. It's all relative to my home town right? This place was extremely small in compariosn.

So I had to do some research. I was intrigued at what I found out.

There used to be a buzz about Mineral Wells's water. Hence the name. But all over the world it was know for revitalizing and enriching beauty to help people stay young. Kind of how we understand Botox today--

So this hotel was completed in 1929. My first question was how it stood through the Depression. The ultra wealthy of Europe and people came from all over to partake of this mineral pool--the second hotel ever to even have a pool. I read about numerous people who visited. Some included--President Johnson, Reagan, Marlyn Monroe, Helen Keller, Lady Bird.

So the Baker Hotel took a dive in the late 50's when the government came out and said the water was declared feaux--that the water didn't do much for you. The hotel stayed open through part of the 60's.

Today it is all boarded up. There have been a few owners since that have removed all the marble and chandeliers and so forth. The only thing I can compare it to is the size of the Grand American in Salt Lake and the freakness look of the Tower of Terror.

It's just hard to beleive that this little town was thriving like it was back in the day as a place where people came from all over. And it's too bad it can't be rennovated. There is so much abestos in there it would take 20 million plus they said just to remove that aspect. It is considered hunted too. The owner had a mistress that jumped from the 17th floor becuase of all the distress that came of it. Aparently, she still lingers. I image the local high school kids test the waters with that one. After all, there isn't much else there.

This is what I saw...

& this is how it used to look...


Neat huh?


Saturday, July 18, 2009

Room with the View...

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# 1 Bed & Breakfast...

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A place I like to call HOME!


Sunday, July 12, 2009

Sunkissed...

Sunkissed...

Wonderful to be home chillaxing with Ma' & Pa' at the pool.


Saturday, July 11, 2009

My nieces and nephews are cuter than yours...










Thursday, July 9, 2009

Moment in time...

The other day I was streaming Michael Jackson's memorial on my computer while trying to get some work done, when my husband sent me a text relaying that hundreds were gathered in Times Square watching the memorial live on the big screens.

It was one of those moments where all of the sudden, time stood still.

Despite being thousands of miles apart, I cherished the moment realized that one day I'll look back at this time and think that 'those were indeed the days.' Really? Even when I'm exhausted from weekend travels to see my husband and I have trouble sleeping at night when I'm without him?

I just realized that being a working women is really special. I'm excited to have a family but this time with 'just the two of us' is really special.

My husband is having the best experience with ESPN and gets to work in the heart of the city. I was shocked last weekend when he showed me where his office was. I just assumed on Times Square which extends out to be a long demographic. I get my TV shows mixed up but I think he said the Today Show or Good Morning is right underneath him so he has that pedestrian traffic in the morning. He didn't seem too thrilled about it. But he is right there. And although its no big deal to him, I couldn't help but think how special.

& we've got family surrounding us that loves us and is truly there for us. Provided the memorial was playing, I couldn't help but think that we wouldn't always have them. There is truly nothing better than family at the fingertips.

And although life is hard and we have our struggles and aches, thank goodness! They shape and define us for these tender moments where our hearts our hearts are overwhelmed remembering all we have to be grateful for.



Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Flower Power...

I adore these knit flower from Sundance.

Don't get me wrong, fresh flowers are special. But this color and creative touch is perfecto for my little apartment.


I can't claim discovering these. I had some friends ahh'ing over these before I saw them. When they left, I swooped in and got some. I still feel bad about it sometimes. But I noticed the other day they still have many left to confiscate. My friend noted how neat it would be to make these for a gift or something. She is the one that could. I on the other hand admire those that can do such a thing--labor of love sealed with a ton of time.


Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Did I mention...

That I got to go see my husband the past two weekends?

This last time I wore one of my favorite shirts that I thought was perfectly appropriate after a week's absence--my embroidered 'Love Brids' shirt. Even better--he noticed, "You wore you love bird shirt."

Thanks for noticing!




Friday, July 3, 2009

20 things--Just in case you wanted to know...

1. I don't do the whole TV thing--especially the reality TV shows that hold your time hostage.

2. I'm a crazy picture taker with big scrapbooking aspirations.

3. Due to inexperience I wore way too much makeup on my wedding day. It still gets me.

4. I'm not on the Apple bandwagon--Ipod, IPhone, or computer. No thanks!

5. In large part I'm driven by goals and to-do lists. I love them!

6. At the start of every year one of my goals is to wear makeup consistently. It never lasts.

7. I truly believe I can beat ANYONE in a game of horse in my driveway on my b-ball goal.

8. I watch Larry King when I'm at the gym. So maybe I do TV...

9. I always feel the need to get more organized.

10. I like to sing even though I'm not good at it.

11. I prefer early mornings. & i think sleeping is overrated even though it is very important.

12. I often find myself talking about having a 'career change.' There are some things I feel like I need to do--more info later. Then I realize I don't really have a career, just a job.

13. People think my 'kid names' are odd. I think they're narrow minded.

14. I was an annual student who didn't put studies or class work off. I couldn't sleep if I wasn't prepared for a quiz/test. But I actually wished I could of relaxed a bit more with school.

15. I loved school! & I love work. But I wish I would have double majored. Or gotten into grad school. That one was out of my control though.

16. If someone were to ask me to pinpoint one of my greatest blessings, I'd have to saw 'tearing my ACL' weird enough. Between basketball and school my days were so set and booked with everything I had to do. My life was so planned out and I wasn't looking right or left. When I tore my ACL it allowed for other things to come into my life--such as a boyfriend who became my lover/husband--and taught me to be more flexible yet embracing what comes way.

17. I love to go to rodeos but don't generally enjoy going to the movies--unless if it's to spend time with people I love.

18. I saw a bear on a horseback ride up Walsburg Canyon here in Utah just two summers ago. & when I announced it in 'good news minute' my bishop said there weren't any bears up that way. So you're calling me a liar?

19. Every time I see sunglasses in a store, I feel the need to have another pair. It's like every time I need some I don't have them. So I always need a pair?

20. I love my husband so much--I sometimes have to hold back the urge of yelling it out.


Thursday, July 2, 2009

Since yesterday was the half year mark....

I thought I'd come up with a few goals.

It seems like New Year's makes for some life changing objectives like loosing 100lbs.

But my 6 month goals aren't so daunting. They're quite simple in fact. But will help me evolve and discover more of the true me.

Clip from Anthropogie



Wednesday, July 1, 2009

I can't decide about Roller Blades...

I've gone back and forth about whether or not I should get a pair.


I have great aspirations of riding them through Provo Canyon. The paved trails are amazing. I could just go--

But then when I really think about it I realize...

- I'm limited to just the summer time to really use them as I desire.
- Roller Blades would make me a funny looking--almost 7 ft tall.
- I'd rather not spend the money.
- Tons of 'what ifs' running through my head.
- & I'm trying to consolidate and not add to my stuff.

So I'm torn really. I'd love to go roller blade on a day like today. But its been 15 years and maybe it's not all what it's cracked up to be...


Love these trails

Some desirable kicks